Under The Cherry Moon

Last night I dreamt that Prince wanted to marry me and was trying his hardest to woo me...

When I Grow Up/Seven

I totally forgot that I was suppose to be at the Fever Ray show tonight. So instead of enjoying the show and being put into a magical world, I am dealing with my existential crisis...

Oh well...

Even though these music videos are great, I do have to say my favorite music video by her is "If I Had A Heart". I feel as if someone has picked out most of my ideas from my brain and placed it in this video. As if someone knew what goes on inside of my head with my dreams and thoughts...

The Symbolism Of Bats

The animal symbolism of the bat speaks of:

-Illusion
-Rebirth
-Dreams
-Intuition
-Initiation
-Journeying
-Inner Depth
-Communication

The Native American animal symbolism of the bat comes from a keen observation of this magnificent animal. These people recognized that the bat was highly sensitive to their surroundings and so therefore was considered a symbol of intuition, dreaming and vision. This made the bat a powerful symbol for Native American shamans and medicine people. Often the spirit of the bat would be invoked when special energy was needed, like "night-sight" which is the ability to see through illusion or ambiguity and dive straight to the truth of matters.
It is a symbol of communication because the Native Americans observed the bat to be a highly social creature. Indeed, the bat has strong family ties. They are very nurturing, exhibiting verbal communication, touching, and sensitivity to members of their group.

If you have the bat as your totem you are extremely aware of your surroundings. Sometimes you can be overly sensitive to the feelings of others. Additionally, you are quite perceptive on a psychic level, and are prone to have prophetic dreams.

If you work with the bat as your totem, you will be put to the test, because it is demands only 100% commitment to spiritual growth. The bat will never accept half-hearted or lukewarm attempts at self-improvement. Indeed, if the bat senses that you are slacking in your psychic/spiritual training it will likely move on to someone else who is more willing to learn the lessons the bat has to offer.

As with most of our hardest challenges, working with the demanding bat will reap some of the most profound rewards you could ever dream of. But be warned, the bat asks a lot of us, like:

-Dying to our ego
-Loving our enemies as ourselves
-Going within to touch our inner demons
-Exploring the underworlds of reality (which can be scary)
-Renewing our thoughts and beliefs on a moment-to-moment basis

All of these tasks can be harrowing experiences. This is why the Native American symbolism of the bat deals with initiation; because this creature takes us to outlandish extremes. But rest assured, the bat is never leaves our side while we are journeying.

Furthermore, once we are tested to satisfaction, the devotion of the bat will never fade. It will eternally support us on our spiritual path - ever faithful and forever loving us on our journey to maintain our highest potential.

(Bat Woman by Albert-Joseph Penot)

Beetle

"To see a beetle in your dream, indicates that some destructive influences may be at work in your waking life. You may also feel that your values and beliefs are being compromised."

last night's dream

i had a dream last night that i was living in a war zone and there was this girl that was dying and i told her everything will be alright... then she died in my arms. meanwhile, a man and a woman were flying around in a helicopter and a missle hit them and the helicopter went up in flames. their skin was melting off while they had huge smiles on their faces. the man turns to the woman and says "WE DID IT! YES! WE DID IT!" they soon crashed into a parade for the new president of the war zone land. back to me in this dream, i was lost in the hotel that everyone was seeking sheltering in. hundreds of doors to rooms that were never there on a long, never ending hallway. i didn't know what to do... all the doors were locked and the bombs were exploding closer and closer... fast forward to another part of my dream.... a woman gave birth to a giant red car that looked like the red car she loves to drive.

my dreams are always strange and sometimes too fucked up to even say a loud.